I don't really know how to properly express how excited I am. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a dad. Even in high school, I couldn't wait to get married and have kids. I didn't think it would take me well into my thirties for it to happen. I guess the stars just had to align properly before it could work out.
I have so much to learn about babies and being a father. I don't have a lot of experience with kids except Rian's little Stella. She's adorable but I've never had to really take care of her. Honestly, I'm fucking terrified of screwing up. If one little thing goes wrong I could ruin her life forever. That's a heavy responsibility.
There's no one else I can imagine having children with but Thea. She's the most incredible woman I've ever known and I'm honored not only to be her fiance, but the father of our child, too. I hesitate to say she's perfect, but I think she is. She'd kill me for thinking it, but it would be a good death.
I never would've thought that babies required so much preparation. We had to buy all the things and we're working on preparing everything for when we have to go. She's not supposed to be here for another few months, but time passes so fast these days. Thea's almost six months already!
Thea let me have more say than she probably should have when it came to how we decorated the nursery and the color scheme we picked. We didn't want anything too garish and overtly girlie, and I think we accomplished that with the purple, teal and grey. It's my favorite room in the house right now.